memories of my life.

2010-12-23T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hi,

I'm really out of this place.
For a moment.

Gdbye. (:

Sentosa.

2010-07-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

A day out with my Dearest to Sentosa. Its been really long since we really spent quality time with each other. The plan was just to sun-tanning. But we ended up watching 4D cineblast, played desperados and lastly watched Song by the Sea. I totally enjoyed watching the 4D movie although it last for 25 mins only. Maklom lah, jakon. It was the first time I watched this and I find it totally cool. For those who have not watch it before, you've got to try it. haha. I guarantee you'll not regret. Hah.
After watching the 4D cineblast, Cha wanted to play the Desperados. It was quite stoopid I tell you. Haha. We had to so called "ride on the horse" and then.. shoot your horse's number on the wide screen. Its damn hard. Just imagine the horse you're riding is galloping and you have to shoot at the same time. Makk cow! Ala ala Cowgirl la gitu. HAHA.
After the game, we had Sarpinos for lunch-dinner and finally, Song by the Sea. It was awesome. The lightings, the water effects and everything la. I really enjoyed myself. I bet my Dearest Cha enjoyed himself too! Can we have these kinda outing again dear? :D

Cha,

2010-07-09T00:48:00.002+08:00

I think I need you more than you need me. Its quite frustrating not having you right here beside me whenever I need you. I might be laughing here and there, having so much fun out there with my people, but deep down inside, no one knows. I don't quite feel you nowadays. Why? Is it me? Nah, I don't think so. I am really packing all my things so that I won't feel any empty spaces. Because why? because for the past 12 months you've been filling all the empty spaces dear. But now, its just for few hours and you're gone. How I wish you could really feel me. Feel the "awesomeness" that I've been feeling every single week. I'm trying not to be those typical gfs having their bfs in Ns. But true. The trust between us totally sucks, what else? Love? Itu, hanya Allah saja la yang tahu. I'll just have to be bersabar I guess. And ya, I have been bersabar-ing for the past 4 months. REALLY bersabar I tell you. Oh dear, I wish you could hear the misery. :'(

2010-07-06T17:38:00.002+08:00

Moments.

2010-06-01T08:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH MONTHSARY DEAR!

Town on Sunday evening.

2010-05-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

I'm happy to be with you. (:

Fe-rent.

2010-05-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

I just feel that something is not right. Are we tearing apart? Hope not.
Missed.

Shishaaa.

2010-05-16T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hi all. Update about yesterday. Supposingly my plan was to go arab st and so called chilled with my darlings and boyfriends but it ended up to be just the four of us. I decided not to do full shift for work because Aty was already outside that time. So, macam kesian pulak nak cancel meet up, aku pon decide to end work and go Bugis. Met Cha somewhere at the carpark there and head down to arab st. Met Aty and bf at Zamzam, had dinner and where else could we go after that? Shisha la jugak walaupun empat orang sahaja. Played some card games and went straight home after that. Anyway, thanks for the day people! I enjoyed myself. And sorry eh Ash kau kene amek off kerja sebab nie. (:

2010-05-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

Cinta.

shots.

2010-04-28T16:25:00.002+08:00

Hi people.

Things went so wrong yesterday between me and Cha. I felt so fucked up. I swear yesterday was the most unlucky day for me. Had my 1st day of period. As per normal, my menses cramp was damn awful! went to sch, reached the front door of my classroom and got to know that there was no theory lesson. Great. At that moment of time, sumpah darah aku menyirap naik atas smp kepala. Me then make my way out of the school and met the rest. Sat around for about an hour then go home! Hmmm.. This is the best part of yesterday.
When I got home, I straight away switched on my lappy and went into my fb. And.... walah!! I swear, I feel like throwing away the ring that dearest bought for us out of the window siol. But ofcourse I didn't la ehk. Di situ la begin nye perang besar between me and Cha. Its so besar till at that point of time, I totally gv up with my dearest. I just felt that its the end of our relationship. But I tried to calm myself and went out to ease my mind a lilttle. That was when I can really think properly and get to talk with Cha otp properly. We got the problem settled but still not fully cleared. Some things still need to be fixed. I'll wait for dearest to come home and really sit and talk with him. Haiz.. I thought this kind of problem doesn't exist at these kind of age. Hmm.. nampak nye, aku totally salah. Every relationship will have this kind of problem ke? Boleh tak aku nak relationship yg clean and clear? (:
Urghhh.. I'm still thinking about what happened yesterday. Dear, I hope whatever things that you said were so true. Please.

-Fina.

2010-04-23T15:21:00.001+08:00

meeting my NS boy in 20 mins time for late lunch and catch a movie probably. (:

2010-04-21T20:36:00.003+08:00

Youuuu should stop judging people. Kinda sick and tired of hearing the same topic. -__-
Have some sense of pre-kemanusiaan sikit. You'll never know what people talk about yourself. (:

Shut ur mother fucking mouth up BITCH-es!

Sand & Sea for 3 weeks straight !

2010-04-20T10:54:00.005+08:00

My headline says it all people! Me and Cha has been going to Sentosa for 3 weeks straight. I don't know why we kept going there during weekends. I think we're running out of places to go already. Haha. Since Sentosa have more places of interest to go now. I think its the best place for us to hang out nowadays. Hehh. So much of hanging out there, I'm getting darker now. Nah.. I'm happy though. Hehe! Erm.. I think that's for now. I've nothing much to blog about. Its mostly the same old thing. I'm still surviving working at Six accessories. Miracle huh. Haha. All of my old colleagues left the place for good. Left with me alone and the new staffs. Hmmm..

2010-03-13T19:31:00.004+08:00

Hey. First of all, Cha, aku rindu kau bodoh! Cepat la balek. Dearest has been away for the stoopid ns for 5days already. Another week to go then kita go jln2 lagik ok Cha. Since he's away, I'm busy with school and work. As per normal la ehk. Lepas school, keje. Itu saja routine aku everyday. But oh well, I'm still enjoying my life though. My enjoying life is like different from other teenagers I guess. Haha. Hmmm.. One more thing, I guess life is gonna be easier this time. Dad got a new job which offers him a better pay. Mom, hmmm... pity her. She's doing 2 jobs everyday except weekends. Me, can stop working in few months time. And Dearest has got his driving licence. Easier to travel here and there but sadly, he has to serve the country for another 95 weeks? So ya, mcm takde maknenye. But aku akan buat kan iya ada maknanya. Haha. Oh ya, I'm gonna book for my TP soooooooonnn. I don't know when is my soon, but ya, soon la ehk. Hopefully I don't need to book 3 times for TP. Hah. Now I realise, taking driving licence needs lots of money jugak ehk. Ini la Singapore. (:

2010-03-04T10:57:00.003+08:00

i miss you badly.

Dear, I know some things issnt right these days. Am I to blame? Is it me or is it you or is it us? Whats the problem actually? Recent nights I kept thinking about us. I don't how to put in words. You'll always ask me to explain things but I just can't. Heli would know me better. Hahh. Dear, we'll never know what will happen next. But I just want you to know that my heart is only for you. I need you to trust me. I love you sincerely, dear. And I'm sorry for the things that I'd say that hurt you. Forgive me.

budak gemok.

2010-03-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 14TH MONTHSARY.

i love you. (:

recent trips.

2010-02-25T16:57:00.014+08:00

Holla people! This blog has not been updated for soo long. So let me update a lil bit. After a very long time of not spending time together with family, I decided to take a very long off from work. Went to visit my relatives at Malaysia with family and Cha. Yeap, my dearest tagged along as he hasn't been into a real kampong before. Furthermore the day that we went was Valentine's Day. So ya. Didn't really celebrated it but atleast he's beside me the whole 2 days. Hehhh.. After spending time at my nenek's kampong, Dad decided to drive to KL. Didn't really spent time at KL. Just had our dinner and walk around abit then thats it. And thats for the kampong trip.

The other trip was to the Zoo with dearest Cha. It was so random that we planned to go to the Zoo. That day, I woke up late and decided not to go to school and work. So I called my Cha and he planned to go to the Zoo. Spent a very quality time together there. Hee. I got so excited the moment we reached there. Maklum lah. Da lama tak go Zoo. Haha. Walked around the Zoo, got tired then headed home straight. So ya. Thats for my trip to the Zoo.

2010-02-01T13:15:00.007+08:00

Dusty blog. Okay.. some updates. Life, as per usual jugak. School then work. Fullstop. Can't wait to stop working then I can live my life to the fullest.

My fat boy is going NS soon. Ofcourse I'm abit sad but watodo.
Ok anyway, Happy 13th monthsary fat boy! You know I love you.
You're the only one whom I really enjoy being with. Nothing feels right without you. You're special. You'll never fails to make me smile when I'm down. You'll never give up to assure me how much you love me despite my paranoia because you know how much I'm scared to lose someone that I love so much. No one ever pamper me like one mother fucking princess of royalty. No one ever tolerate me when I'm out of control. With you, I can be really me, do or say anything crazy without fearing that you'll judge me. I still remember 1st Jan 09, exactly when the clock ticks to 12, and when the fireworks starts, you kissed me and said 'i love you.' Standing just below the not-so-grand fireworks (you know how Singapore's fireworks is) haha. I felt sooo errr.. loved? haha. But at the same time, scared ofcourse coz I felt that its too early for us to start in a relationship. But this relationship grew though. Now, its been a year, I can see how much you showed your love. I still can't believe we've grown till here. So do you rite Cha? haha. Cha, never ever leave ok. Just stay close with me. I love you. (:

2010-01-20T14:50:00.002+08:00

hello.

i'd be either moving or staying. or hiatus maybe? idk.
sometimes one is better than two or more.
being generous is obviously better than selfish.
being kind is definitely better than cruel.
and in the end,it all boils down to your ownself.

helina

2010-01-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

What a boring weekends.

-Fina.

misses

2010-01-08T10:52:00.004+08:00

Hello. Some updates. I'm not in school today yo. Coz I woke up late. Hehh. Tired to the max. I think I need to get alive man. My time now is just for school, work then home. Where's my the other life dok? Its getting boring every single day. I don't even have time for my lings and bf dok. Oh Gawddd. I feel so terrible, I swear. I might consider quitting my job soon as my teacher says, " This is your 2nd year. You should be concentrating on your studies. Don't think of work now. You are young and this is not the time to work. You can work all you want if you've graduated." Haaahhh! Mcm true ehk. But as nobody can see, I need the money. Hehh. If I don't need it, I also don't bother to think of working dok. Tol tak tol? Tol... urghhh... Boring nyerrr.. I really wanna spend time with my lings and darling.

I miss Gemok

I miss them

XoXo dok.

01.01.10

2010-01-05T00:19:00.002+08:00

I know its quite late to say this but, HAPPY 1 YEAR gemok! I love you although we always fight. You're the best. :)

& HAPPY 2010!

& Today is 1st day of 2nd year in school dok. Pfft.

& I'm very very happy to meet all my beloved breasts-es in school just now.

& Lastly I hate the timetable this year. Thanks to whoever plan that. "GoodJob." :)

-Fina.

updatez.

2009-12-31T11:55:00.004+08:00

So yesterday was Marsiling Secondary Concert Band Passing out Parade. Rushed down from work, met Aty at Woodlands and went there together. We missed the marching in part. Haiya. Overall, the performance was ok. I just couldn't recognise most of their faces. Mostly, the sec ones. Pfft. I bet they don't even know me. Hahaha!! Then took pictures mostly with the alumni coz I can't find my juniors!! They were everywhere. haha.

K, I miss being in band. :(

-Fina.

&& yesterday was also a special day for someone. Happy birthday once again Irwan. :)

what am i?

2009-12-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

There were at times when I was alone, suddenly this thought came across my mind. "What am i doing in this world?" No, wait. I know as an Islam, we need to do what was told to do. A must I should say. So ya. That I know. But what I meant was exactly what I read about someone's blog. Errr, honestly, I still read 'oi's blog. Pfft. K nevermind. Don't wanna mention his name. Ok, the whole thing is actually about finding my true self. I've been thinking about this few months back but I don't know how to put in words. I've been keeping this to myself till I think I can't keep it anymore. Crying in the middle of the night macam orang sakit jiwe pulak aku. Hah. Itu lah, sometimes, mental breakdowns. Finding my true self. Yeah, I think I'm so lucky to have such a great loving family and great friends and a loving boyfriend too. But what about me being me? Haha. K, I bet no one can understand what I mean right? Kk, nevermind. I think I'm abit lost in life. I think I'm abit far away from God. We're not living in this world forever. Everything that I have now will not follow me till the end.

-Fina.

bff. hahaha.

2009-12-23T10:32:00.000+08:00

Ok, here are some pictures of our overnight at eastcoast park. It was quite a last min plan. But it was fun. I swear I had fun while walking to ecp. Laughing all the way. Here's the reason why.

We so called 'rent' a trolley from NTUC, dump all our stuffs inside and push all the way to ecp. Reached the park, we took our stuffs and left the trolley somewhere in the dark. Pfft.

&& Happy Birthday ayah!! Hope you like the cake and I want to say that you're the greatest dad and I love you! You've done so much to the family. Thank you for everything. I LOVE YOU!!

-Fina.

random nak mampos.

2009-12-21T22:54:00.003+08:00

I feel like dying my hair brown like the picture above and layered it. Pffft!

Dye? Don't dye?

Dye? don't dye?

Dye? Don't dye?

.......

...

&& i miss my budak gemok.

I hope you can endure with this situation. I know its a bit hard but if we're both have faith in each other, we'll make it through smoothly. Insyaallah.

2009-12-19T11:27:00.002+08:00

Don't let today's disappointments cast a shadow on tomorrow's dreams.

pictures update.

2009-12-15T11:53:00.006+08:00

Went out with love on Sunday. Met him at bugis after work and we decided to catch a movie. Watched 'Couples Retreat'. It was ok only la. Nothing great actually. Pfft. But I enjoyed myself defintely. :D

Penat face after midnight.

See, I told 'ya. Gelap betol! hahaha.And this is what we do when we are bored at work. Trying on those accessories in the shop and camwhore.

Ok. I'm done. Meeting love later for lunch then, work. -_-

-Fina.

hari hari aku happy!

2009-12-13T10:53:00.003+08:00

So yesterday after work, met Shaf and Azmi at town. Dropped at Somerset and walked around 313. Cool ehk. But we dint really tour around. The moment I saw the main entrance, I decided to get out of there coz its so crowded. Then walked to FarEast. Shopped abit then off to Changi Airport, left the two bff together. Haha! Met Cik Melor and Cha's brother there. Waited for Cha for like an hour dok. Penat oi. Haha. But I'm HAPPY that he's back!! And I was shocked to saw him so dark. Oh God. Boleh sampai kene sunburn. Hahaha. Tu la, laen kali pakai sunblock setengah botol k. But oh well, congrates for attaining 2nd. Medal lawa ehk. Tak nak kasi I simpan lagik?? hahaha. k kidding. Ok, that's for now. I have to get ready for work. Toodles! :D

-fina.

Mcm nak ckp jek aku.

2009-12-11T02:01:00.005+08:00

Random pictures on Thursday.

Mentang- mentang gigi da rapat, senyum asik nak tunjuk gigi jek. Mcm nak ckp jek aku. HAHA!Senyuman manisss dari Heli.

This picture's so random. With 'xo' sign and its quite stoopid but oh well, i like the effect though.Don't ask me what's with the shades. I also don't know. Pfft.Muke aku asik legong jek bile candid-ly snap. Mcm nak ckp jek aku. HAHA!

End of year class party.

2009-12-10T23:30:00.001+08:00

Had some small class party in class just now. I reached school at 1030, had some movie marathon going on and then the food fest started. Sadly, not all attend school. So I didn't get to see all of my classmates before school vacation starts. But its ok. Next year can still meet ehk, Insyallah. Had my dinner with Shaf Heli and Azmi at Woodlands Centre. Favourite eating place aku. Haha. Then to Heli's area to have my fringe cut again. Hehh. So thats for today. Pictures below ehk. And once again, aku rindu cintaku. :(

-fina.

some entertainment please?

2009-12-10T14:25:00.004+08:00

so ya.. updates..
on the 8th,

as early as 5 plus, me and family send brother off to airport for his Japan trip. and right after sending brother off, quickly rushed back to send dearest boyf for his NS enlistment. yup, he's been enlisted alr. me and boyf's family stayed for the whole enlistment activity and finally his father dropped me off at cck staion and that's where i met my Larlings. i was totally wore off for that whole day. and ya, i didnt wanna stay at home cause i'll go crazy because of boredom and because boyf wont be there for me that often when i need him. dammit. i really need some entertainment yo. serious shit dol. lol.
adding on, aku family alr planned that this coming 18th or 19th would be our holiday to Genting i think. BUT.... larlings have also planned smth. and those dates that they planned clashed with my holiday to Genting. alahaiii. i dont know how things are gonna be during this school vacation. but all i know is that i have to keep myself busy to distract me from thinking about boyf while he's in camp. fck it.

i need a job! i need smth to occupy my free time! that's all.

adios peepos.

helina

hari selasa.

2009-12-09T10:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday decided to go out early before going to work. Met Shaf and Azmi then followed by Heli at town. Accompanied Azmi to change his braces at Wisma then headed down to Ayam Penyet to have our lunch. After lunch, the three of them sent me to work. Hehh!! Tank ki eu. They so called lepak at my work place as its not so crowded on weekdays. So ya. Pictures taken below. And thanks ehk Azmi for downloading the games to my ipod!! Wuhoo! *Cha!! I da ade games pat ipod. Jealous tak jealous tak?? HAHAHA!!

Woooo.. and i loike this.... haha.

-fina.

just the 2nd day. ):

2009-12-07T12:00:00.002+08:00

I hope you're doing fine there. Come home soon. Imy begok!

to dearest.

2009-12-01T23:28:00.004+08:00

Terima kasih cintaku for everything.

You know i'll always love you. Hehh..

Happy 11monthsary. <3

2009-11-30T18:30:00.004+08:00

okay,this post actually had been drafted for i dont know how long. few weeks maybe? thats not really important. i just wanna post some random thoughts here and just wait till my next post is up alright. kay,here it goes. suddenly smth appeared in her mind.

imagine if...

i was born in a different year, went into different secondary school, i wouldnt have met my dearest Larlings. friends i had would have been different.

and now, when i'm in my tertiary school, i also met those fun and hyperactive people like feekah,radhika, the crazy ass part-time babi and a whole bunch more.

i'm really greatful to have met friends and people that i've known so far. maybe some people are not meant to meet or be it, be w each other. idk if i have a fear of losing friends. but boyf said i have. if i really have to, then i've got no other choice.

but the most luckiest thing that i hv now is my dearest Larlings. I know they would try their best to make time and always be there no matter how busy they are w their own life. LOADS OF XOXO TO LARLINGS! HAHAHA! we shall have photoshoot and picnic when our vacation starts kay larlingsku.

and ya, fyi people. some might alr know that i lost my hp a few weeks back. and there goes my hp number. seems like its time for another new number. but i guess not yet. currently using my lil sister hp. unlucky me. but on a brighter note, i can now save up a lil bit on my transport allowance cos boyf alr bought his motor! weehee. so i guess thats all aye.

and to you, i dont know whats the situation between us now. if you feel like talking to me then talk. if not, then its okay. if you dont want to change just to make others happy, then its all up to you. you lead your life. not me. my apologies, kid. see ya around ya.

helina.

tang ki eu.

2009-11-17T23:20:00.001+08:00

Thank you cha!!

You almost gave me a heart attacked just now. haha.

Saya sayang kau la bodoh! <3

2009-11-16T19:54:00.002+08:00

Hayylow kiddos! I try not to abandon this blog yea. Just quick updates about whats going on with me now. I've started working part-time already. Managing time between work and school is not as easy as I thought. My school timetable is being an arse. It can change whenever it like. That causes my time management to be an arse too. Pfft. Just hope that everything will be stable soon.

Cintaku is also working now. So its fair for both of us. Masing-masing ada kerja untuk buat. Hahaha. Hopefully it doesn't go to the extent till we don't have time for each other. Apart from school and work, I've to squeeze my time for samba rehearsals too. Not forgetting, my family and larlings. I'll try to manage my time properly so that I won't miss anything. (:

I'll update again soonner or later alrite. Till here, goodbye.

-Fina.

not dead yet.

2009-11-01T23:41:00.005+08:00

howdy peeps. curious about my updates right? heh heh. i shall say that every sunday is a boring day. nah, actually it should be a day to relax after the hectic days of schooling. hah. today woke up pretty early, do the laundry. aku kan part-time maid kat uma. after done w the laundry, went for the usual sunday samba practice. today's practice i learnt alot. but still need more effort on my own practicing. i think me and daffy always get corrupted on every sunday morning. because the leader of the samba group himself is over corrupted. lol. otak+imagination dia corrupted core punya. haha. after our practice, daffy's parents fetched us and home sweet home.
first thing when i reached home, cooked maggi. hah. prangai kepale botak sei. few minutes after that, fell asleep. cmne tak bertambah kilo. after i woke up, first thing i find was food. haha. then mak said she's not cooking today. so i made milo. and then mom gave bro money to buy food for me and himself. i didnt know what to eat. at last i ate half a packet of mee goreng plus bubble tea drink. and roti john. so not a good mixture of meal. and now i'm having gastrics. yay. haha. kay,boring. see,i told you my day was boring today.

anyway, i have smth to tell 'you'. i dont know what's w me. but i hope that you would put a stop to what you're doing. its great to have you as my friend. but the way you're taking and seeing things is miles different from how i'm taking it. feeling awkward is definitely the thing i dont want things to be. but if it has to be, then it has to be. make me and everyone happy by daring yourself to step into the reality world.i really hope you would. :)

helina

celebration kami.

2009-10-30T10:36:00.004+08:00

Our birthday celebration was awesome! Thanks to our darlings and emma. It was great, i swear. Hahahha. Thanks for the presents, and the night. Hahaha. I've nothing much to say. Just a BIG THANK YOU. Weeee~~!! da 19. :D Pictures in Facebook and Aty's blog.

aku.

2009-10-27T20:13:00.003+08:00

Hello earthlings. I just wanna say that I'm not using my old hp no. anymore. Officially not using it anymore. Hehh. Now, new no. Most of my contacts, gone. Great huh. So people if you have to contact me, find a way yourself ehk. Pfft. Facebook ke Myspace ke, worst still, Friendster. Jyeah.. Friendster. Suprisingly, I still have my profile there. Terbongkang. Kesian. I'm not active there la k. Muka-buku uh. Is the best place to find me. Ok, enough of my hp no. Some updates about things happening lately; my name has been listed again for debarment. Bestbest. I can't help it uh. Sometimes I regret schooling at Tampines. Damn far from home. ): I'm always late for class and that explains why my name is red-highlighted. Hahh! Anyway, I'm trying to make-up my hours after school. Hopefully section head will let me sit for my exams.

Hmmm.. Turning 19 was ok. Followed mom to the market early in the morning. Hahaha. Best oi. Mom cooked my favourite food. Lagik best. Then randomly met my friends at town and huga huga and ya. Thats that. Looking forward to meet Aty and Emma on Wed. Which is 2mrw la. Miss them lots. Hehh. (: Jya, I'm done here. Goodbye!

-fina.

updates.

2009-10-14T16:33:00.014+08:00

Hey hey hey! I'm back with pictures. From top, Penang trip, which I don't really enjoy cause of the stoopid sickness. Fyi, I got sick for the whole trip. So ya. Not many pics taken. 2nd half, raya with samba people. And the bottom, a day out with Cha after a week of stoopid trip.

syurga cinta

2009-09-28T23:06:00.006+08:00

such a romantic yet meaningful story i shall say.
i cried when i was watching the movie. hah. emotional ah.
thank you dear boyf for recommending me to watch this movie.
i miss you anchik♥ .

psst, i got a new name for secretpal. hehe. the new name's, dimplekid. simply because i like your dimples la! haha. wei dimplekid! i know its easy for me to say this, but pls don't be disappointed or sad aft what happened. we're still contactable. i'll still be your friend. i think there are even better ones out there for you. okay? i want you to smileeeeee! :]

helina

rojak emotions.

2009-09-23T19:10:00.009+08:00

there's more pictures, just lazy to upload. :)

i guess raya this year is pretty much fun! since my cousin, in fact her whole family had been lodging in my house few months back, its been super fun. we share and hear our problems together. i call my aunt,mama, and my uncle,papa. so there's mak, abah, mama and papa at home! hehe. that's the fun part. but there's a not-so-fun part also. both moms and dads are planning cum decided that they're gonna buy a big new house at Johore. ayaaaakkkk! why johore of all countries! erghhh. and so, two families are gonna live there pretty soon. but on a lighter note, they'll be buying a three-room flat for us, the children in singapore. and i will say this, I WILL NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE DECLARE MYSELF AS A MINAH MALAYSIA! NEVER WILL!! ya, some might be giggling or smiling or whatever by now. ha ha ha. idk how i should feel right now. and they said everything's gonna be settled by this coming dec.haiyaaaa!

22 sept is a cursed date for me. but somehow i manage to solve things out. what a relief. i love you shafiq sahaimi. and, to secretpal, you're just making it so obvious. i noticed you didnt want to face me when i bumped onto you that time. hey, smile my friend. there's no need to be shy or any awkwardness. like i said, i don't mind us being friends. takecare friend. slamat hari raya. :)

LASTLY, I WANT THAT KULIT BABI DUANE HO OUT OF SG IDOL! EWWWW!

helina

eid 2009

2009-09-22T17:45:00.003+08:00

First and foremost, selamat hari raya to all Islam. I hope you guys out there are having fun celebrating it. Umm... To those that I know, if i ever hurt you guys in any ways, verbally or physically, I'm sorry. Saya minta maaf zahir and batin.

This year raya was ok laa.. nothing much. 1st day, rot and gobble all the food at home. Pfft. Nine at night then my family decided to go out of the house to my aunty's house. Then GO HOMEE..!! hahaha. 2nd day pulak, WORK. Bagusss.. My family went out for raya the 2nd day without me. Sad. Seeing all those families in the train with their baju raya, membuat kan aku jealous. But watodo.. 3rd day, here I am, at the library, blogging. Went to bbdc for some enquiry thingy for the practical earlier today with mom, dad and cha. Can't wait to get into car and sit at the driver's seat. Pffft. Jakon ehk aku, aku tahu.

Its school vacation now. I don't have any plans yet just that I have to work on the twenty plus plus Sept till twenty plus plus plus Sept for the F1 race and then off to some school trip for A FREAKINGG WEEK! mampus. I never been away from my love ones for this long siol. Accept for the OBS camp BUT THAT WAS AT PULAU UBIN! its not that far from Singapore. But this trip that I'm going is quite far uh. Ok la.. not that far to some but for me, YA. Hah. I don't know if I can survive. Pfft. Hopefully I can. And I hope to have an enjoyable trip with my beloved classmates. Kinda excited but kinda reluctant to go too. Haha.

Ok, I guess I'm gonna end my post here. I'll update again when I've something to update la ehk. Till here, goodbye.

-Fina.

fina disini.

2009-09-14T12:50:00.005+08:00

HEY! HEY! HEYYY!
Hhaha! Currently in school now. Having phase test now which will end at 5pm. Macam ar.. nak ckp aje aku. I just feel like giving up with this test because I ruined all the layers and the floor plan is in a mess. Pfft! Sape nak hire aku bile aku da jadi architect in the future nanti??!!?? (Insyaallah...) Habes uh if I were to plan people's house. Hahaha.

I'M HUNGRY BUT I'M FASTING.
AND I WANT TO MEET LOVE LATER FOR BUKA BUT.. Uhh.. i don't know.
AND I MISS YOU DEAR.. ):

used to it.

2009-09-14T01:52:00.003+08:00

i have a habit where i'd be so angry but end up thinking that it's not worth me expressing my anger. so at the end of the day, i'll bottle up everything. example like if i were to be angry w my close ones like family or friends or even boyf. and speaking of anger, the project that has been finally completed on my own was positively paid off. meaning to say, the positive remark i got from mrs low made me sigh a humongous relief cos i guess the sacrifice i made by abandoning my revision for my Adv Acc exam was worth it but i seriously regretted making that sacrifice to the deepest core of the earth. i guess i just hv to prepare re-sitting for the paper. oh-wells. hopefully mrs low will let me pass for the Biz Law module like she said. i was uber glad when she said the video i edited surprisingly turned out to be good and original from the rest of my classmates.heheeeeee! but still, i'm not fully satisfied cos if only i could prolong the video, it'll be even better. ily mrs low! hehe. she's the best eventho i hate her irritating attitude. haha!

i'm also angry w that person. and it's still boiling but i find it difficult to express it. you had control of me in everything i did, i didnt mind. you used those harsh words, i kept quiet. you tend to be violent at times, i stood still. but when you even controlled my social networking life, i just find it nonsense. cos when i went to your hotmail, its even hurting. you should know what i mean. i just hv to do to what i hv to do without hesitation. i'm angry but i dont wanna argue w you over this. and so, i'll just act like nth happened. :)

helina

updates.

2009-09-09T01:57:00.004+08:00

it's my hobby to give a shock to people. haha.
and i just did that to my cuzzie. she was damn funny.
me: (tip toed from behind) boo!
cuzzie: gerl!! tetek yuyul nak meletop tau.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAH! funneyyy!

jyea, it's exam wk. Costing and Biz Law papers done. just another two and that's it! and yea, i had only 50% confidence when i did costing. it goes the same to biz law too cos i damn fucking missed the opporunity to study the unit which i knew that were surely to be tested on. screwed man. ughh! and guess what! this is random. i was close to tears when i looked back at the pictures of my other two kittens which were given away. heh. seriously, i felt so sad. wonder how are they doing now. or maybe their new owner could've abandoned them?? aghhhh. no no no! :(:(:(

and ya, do i really have to stress up myself? don't know why am i being sucha 'pak sanggup' staying up late to complete the project on my own. and not preparing for tmr's paper. yes, i admit i didnt asked any for help. simply because, they've lots to say, very worried, plan here and there, yadayadayada but nth's done. correct me if i'm wrong? even if i were to meet them up, i know the project surely, still not gonna finish. sorry but i just like to hv assumptions. that's me. i'm just too tired to keep on pushing them because i have my ownself to push real hard. i'm selfish,i know that. obviously because it's for my own benefit. i must learn fast from my first mistake.
i'm staying up pretty late whereas tmr is my advance acc paper. great. that bloody tan hwee koon wants me to be at sch by 9am to do my sub-papers! but exam starts at 3pm. sheesh. nvm helina! it's for your own good. i think i ain't gonna get any slp tonight cos i alr drank more than half of a big mug of coffee just to keep myslf awake. weeheee. lucky i'm having my 'monthly holiday' or else i think i'll alr be snoring away. i can even feel the pulsation of my head as i'm typing right now . how's that. hah.

it's alr at the third week of ramadhan. gosh, time surely waits for no man. SC mates and classmates both booked me on the same day to go break fast. aiyaaa. idk which one to follow. lagi worse, when i asked anchik, he didnt allow me to go either one. hmp!how dare he. i still wanna go. don't care. i buke only what. not go flirting around or clubbing. HAHAHAH.

tạm biệt, độc giả.
i love my bạn trai. <3

helina

aku dan kau.

2009-09-01T17:26:00.004+08:00

Night Safari was fantastic. Thanks to love, he made it a very special one for me. Thank you a zillion times Cha! I swear I had a fabulous time there. Thanks for bringing me to eat my favourite food. Thanks for the time. Thanks for the ice-cream. Thanks for making me happy. Thanks for eveything!

Dearest Cha, its already the 8th month and I hope this will continue for as long as we can. Thank you for being part of me. I know you'll always put a smile on my face nomatter what. You're always the one. I love you forever and always. Happy 8monthsary. :)

-Fina

terribly grreatt!

2009-08-30T15:06:00.002+08:00

Do you even think how I feel huh?

This feeling is horrible mayn.

I knew these kind of disappointment will occur whenever I'm being brought up high.

Yet, I gave myself high hopes.

Kenapa bodoh sangat nie Fina?

Can you just learn your lesson Fina?

Fuck it la. Cheebye.

I'm not going to say a word to you.

I'm not in any mood to do anything now.

Great.

-Fina.

to secret pal.

2009-08-28T01:28:00.006+08:00

howdy peepos! my new number's up! wootwoot!! but i lost all my contacts. tsk. unfortunately, i could only remember some. so, any friends of mine who i didnt text, i'm sorry. but looking on the bright side, me not having that much contacts macam fun gitu la. macam more peaceful. senang kan takya pakai handphone skali. haiya. but too bad i can't do that. cos 'imma busy person ya know. lol. boyf also said he doesn't want to use hp anymore. double tsk.

dear secretloveletterwriter,

can i just know who you are? it's alr the fourth letter you wrote to me. and see how cruel am i just to reply you once. hahah. kk, serious. it's funny to receive secret love letters at my age you know. i feel so secondary school-ish. haha. i apologise if i'm not taking this matter seriously. but it's just so funny la. i'm alr blessfully attached w my dearest most loving anchiklove and that's enough. but it's ok for me to get to know new friends. i likeeeee! and know what, i think i kinda suspect who you are. i just feel soooooo wrong cos my instinct is just telling me strongly that i suspect smth that concerns w the gender. but you look rather sweet and cute. hahahaha. you're such a filial daughter/son when i heard you telling some of the SCs abt your family. i don't mind us being friends, secret pal. hope to know who you are pretty soon.

helina

2009-08-26T10:32:00.002+08:00

Aku mahu meet semua 'larlings' aku soon!

But aku tak ada masa sangat. Macam mana??

-Fina.

2009-08-24T15:54:00.006+08:00

first and foremost, just wanna inform to those who are close to me, i am UNCONTACTABLE for now. because smth happened to my sim card and damn @#$%^&* regret it. ergh. and now i have to go thru trouble finding myself a new num while i'm pretty cashless for now. see, how cashless i am. can't even afford a new prepaid sim card. i'll update you ppl aft i get new num okay? it's gonna be difficult for me without my hp. shiaaaat. cannot contact anchik. cannot contact friends. nasib bulan puasa. sabar je lah helina.

gonna be pretty busy w the event planning for upcoming teachers' day. gosh. total headache. adding on, intensive study on piles of revision paper. and not forgetting my responsibility at home. wooooooooohooooooo. i'm just loving august man.

fina, aku miss kau tooooooo! haha. meet up! tapi takle kat fuchun cc. HAHAHHAAH! you know, i know, shafiq know. :):)

happy 4mths2days anchik! ILY<3.

helina

2009-08-23T11:25:00.003+08:00

Gambar zaman nenek aku pakai slipper roxy. Haha!

Suddenly I miss these two. Miss gossiping. Haha. Everyone seems to be leading their own life now. Including me. Haha. I think. Recalling back the times we always lepak, anywhere that we can lepak with cameras. By the end of the day, hundreds of pictures snapped. Then otw home, "ae, balek online ehk! Gambar send". Hah! Best kan. Amaakkk.. rindu uh timetime dulu. Let's meet up soon. Lots of catching up to do oi. Maybe break fast together again like last year with Shaf and Azmi? (:

Moving on..

I've been not blogging for a period of time, I know. Life has been busy uh. I think. Heh. School becoming more uh... fun? ok not so fun with those stoopid Auto-Cad. I mean fun as in spending time with classmates. New time-table rocks big time! Haha! I don't need to board a full-house bus anymore. Almost everyday we end class early. As early as 12 noon. Except Monday. Baek uh ehk. Aku suka. Haha.
Its fasting month already but I can't fast yet. Heh. Kinda excited this year because I don't have major exams unlike previous 3 fucking years. Yeah.. So it means that I can spent time more jalan jalan ke rumah orang for raya. Baek uh! Haha.
Oh! I was selected to work for the F1 thingy on Sept. Itu pon baek uh! Can get money. Jyeah!. Haha! Heard some old friends were selected too. Hope to meet them. Macam da lama tak jumpa. Rindu. Wokay, i'll end this here. Nomore to say. Selamat berpuasa semua Islam! :D

To Heli, stay strong ok. I don't want you to give up, seriously. Lagik sikit jek then kau done with it. Endure for a little more time ok? :)

-Fina

petals' luck.

2009-08-17T23:58:00.008+08:00

at a particular point of time,i just wanted raise the white flag. in fact,i think i alr am deep down. feels like walking on thin ice. but these few people are the ones who are always there to bring me back up again. and i truly,truly,truly cherish and appreciate their motivational support and care. a humongous THANK YOU to, fina, feekah and of course my part-time babi. i love you all. you people are always the ones who sees my tears roll. i'm a weakling, i know. i am trying my v best to stay strong. thank you so much. your kindness are just overwhelming, my friends. maybe what pt babi said is true, i need a break. but i just can't. i need to be constantly doing catching ups and keeping track of time and tasks. i don't deserve a break, just yet.

helina

untitled.

2009-08-11T01:36:00.005+08:00

howdy readers! toolbars are back. woohoo. btw,i might have got this news a little too late but who cares. know what, idk why me, being fat, became like some sort of a concern to this particular individual. kesian kesian. aku gemok ade susahkan kau eh? badan aku ke badan kau? adding on, i assumed that this person wanted to like sort of badmouthed me, she told her close friend that i wrote bad things about her close friend la pulak. i don't even fucking hell know the close friend, for what reason should i blog about her? astagha.. ada jugak orang macam gini masih hidup lagi eh. like what dear boyf said to the boyf of the close friend, "mataer aku tak menyesal jugak kalau tak berkawan/kenal mataer kau". HAHAHA. nice one dear. i totally agree. dua-dua dah merepek, sajak lah tu korang kawan rapat.keep up w the merepekness yo. jia you!

i miss this lovebugger here. thank you for loving me so endlessly and being patient despite my moods, tantrums and attitude i've been throwing at you all this while. well, why not. i've been doing the same to you too. hoho. it's a fair game i should say. i hope it's worth the tears we both shed on each other. love you. <3

&& pictures updates on facebook. so, self-service ya. :)

helina

tolong.

2009-08-02T15:19:00.000+08:00

i don't know where has the toolbar gone to.
is it just my lappy or the blogspot?
aku want to upload pictures.
but daffy said hers has no problems.
haiyaaaa. irritating laaaaa.

helina.

see, even my initial alignment isn't where it's actually suppose to be at.

cha, sorry.

2009-08-01T12:51:00.001+08:00

I broke my promise. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. Just some stoopid anger took control of me and I thought of it. Its not a good solution, I know. But atleast I didn't just let it go like that. (:

Happy 7monthsary.iloveyou, yes i do.

2009-07-30T19:47:00.003+08:00

Don't take things for granted.

Appreciate what you have.

Just don't regret if anything happens.

Fina.

since 22april09.

2009-07-23T13:30:00.003+08:00

happy third to us, dearest loveboy.

akusayangkamu. akucintakamu.

forever it will last? hopefully.

<3<3<3

helina

pig-tures

2009-07-21T10:49:00.002+08:00

A day out with those two and Cha.

Look at the time, and I'm still at home now. Pfft. Class started at 8 and I woke up at 9 which wasn't supposed to. Hehe! Overslept uh ape boleh buat.. & I'm going off soon to.. uh.. school. HAH!!! && I'm hungry &&& I can't stick me contact lenses to my eyeballs! Chee to the Bye! (:

-Fina

ran to the dom.

2009-07-18T03:13:00.003+08:00

gonna write up on alot of random stuff. and i mean a lot. don't wanna read? skip. about school. supposingly starts at 9. around 9.15+ nearly reached school. on the way, saw Edna. she came up to me, "Yu pei said said lesson starts at 10". rushed and walked quickly like some mad kid, got to know, lesson starts later. heck. so this time, entered class. enthusiasm was there, bcos,as promised i need a change on my attitude in school. from the last back row straight away to the front row. then today appeared like as if it was better off if there's no lesson. simply bcos, Costing lesson was cancelled, during Accounting lesson, we discussed about our class outing. and Business Law, we did study, but distraction cut in the way by some BGR fight by two of the classmates. and just because of them, we wasted time. and i find it irritating and unfair on behalf of the class.
&& oh, after 6 moths plus of having new classmates, just found out that Hidayah, the one who i sat beside w is an easy-going and fun girl to make friends w. bcos all along i thot she was the type who's anti-social but she's not in actual fact. i wish to have an intensive study session w her one day, if that's possible.

today,again, false hope. loveboy said we'd meet up. but we didn't. thanks ah,dah lali ah ni semua. then just now, father's on his night shift to work. i was just outside the doorstep, father also stepped out. he sees the penyapu lidi near mama's(aunty) plants.

father: asal penyapu lidi letak kat lua? (why is the penyapu lidi outside?)
me: enta. memang ade kat lua. (idk, it was there all along.)
father: jangan letak kat situ, letak kat dalam.(don't put it there, place it inside.)
me: knape abah? nnt ade orang biken bende eh? (why? *due to some superstitous belief*)
father: tak, kan dkat internet semua keluar cerita, ade nenek ni, dgn KAK PON! (no, there's alr rumours in the internet abt this old granny w a pon-tee-anak!)

the moment he said that, chills run up my spine.i quickly chased back in all my cats. and there was this naughty one, still didn't want to go in. i was like, "hey, faster go in". and it suddenly stand at one side and it's eyes change to the mirror image eyes. i was like, heck, get back in naughty cat. true enough when mom and bro came home, mom asked why i put the penyapu lidi inside, i told her what father said. and bro said it was true. i was like, okay wtf.
bro said, there's been complaints/rumours in the radio and internet by woodlands residents around my area. they said there's this granny who goes round knocking on doors and asking to buy her spoiled crackers. and if there's anyone who happens to open the door, he/she is forced to buy the crackers. if not, she would let that vampire in and posses(dunnoe how to spell) that person to buy her crackers. mama also said, papa(uncle) also bought spoiled crackers. but not sure whether it was from that granny or not. hmm. then mom added on to scare me saying "tu la kau, suke kan balek lambat-lambat. jaga-jaga kau". urghhh. thanks eh mak. and that's the end of it.

helina

architect.

2009-07-16T18:50:00.002+08:00

Zaha Hadid.

(Cool huh..) ((:

weakling.

2009-07-16T13:54:00.007+08:00

broke down. total shame.

tried my best not to show, ended up i did. fck.
KNOW WHY? BECAUSE SMTH UNFAIR HAPPENED.
AND AS A FRIEND, I DON'T WISH TO TELL TEACHER THE
TRUTH UPON WHAT I SAW/HAPPENED.
what i know, i tried completing it w honesty and i did the correct thing.
thank you dear feekah for consoling and hearing out my long-kept anger.
by the way, aku miss kau. outing pls, or pergi belajar okay?

helina

sos.

2009-07-16T02:12:00.007+08:00

my advance accounting CA is in a few hours time. and here i am, not sleeping/resting but blogging. simply because, i can't concentrate just yet. i'm just taking a few minutes off and will be back to my revision soon i think. idk why, but i have a habit of blogging in the wee hours. hoho. many thoughts slowly comes into my mind when i can't sleep.

about school. it's been a nabey-ish week. i'm having problems w my timing to school and also some teachers. probably, it's just me i guess. i'm having problems w myself. fck it. and ya, i got my first warning letter for my attendance yo. that's really a wow man. anyway, i like to assume at times. nah, most of the time i should say. is it me or them who's acting callow? i guess i should start prioritising things and maybe friends around me eventho it's kinda too late.
should i decide myself or follow others' opinion when it comes to deciding what's right for me? i like taking opinions from others but when it comes to my own decision, i suck at it. i always think that others' opinion might help me. yes, it does, at times. but sometimes, it doesn't. because i'm living my life, not them.there's alot of things i've alr decided what i'm sure of. but after seeking opinions, i'm having the second thoughts. and the feeling is so buto-ish.

i wanna shake off all that nabeybuto-ish feeling off my spinning top mind. it's driving me nuts! by the way, this is random. i'm not bragging this matter but i'm contemplating whether to take up a motor license. heh heh. wataaa boy supports the idea of it. yay. i really want, but have to keep it from mom la. how eh?

meloveanaksahaimi<3

helina

a super duper wooper random post.

2009-07-14T21:07:00.005+08:00

A fucking big cockroach crawled up to my toes just now. Freaking disgusting!! E-e-e!

And I think I miss my Cha. Pfft.

mood's on the swing :(

2009-07-11T00:51:00.005+08:00

i don't know why but i just think i need to post this. my mood swing really played wild on me this time round. i can't even understand myself too. the mood swing has caused me to create unnecessary,unhappy and strained moods/thoughts that i potray to friends, even my family. sheesh. the tone of my voice, my facial expression when i talk to anyone. then, easily pissed off over solvable matter. it's like suddenly i have this attitude whereby, "if you don't wanna be w me/accompany me, i'm fine w it!". this feeling really sucks, really. i've never been thru this kind of mood swing previously. whatever it is, i wish to be back to my normal self real soon. it's like split personality siolsss. first i'm feeling fine, the next minute, i'm not. it's like what the toot.

speaking of unhappy, it suddenly reminded me of those sharpest most cruelest words that came from father's mouth the other day. those words he said, really brought me down to the deepest core. i really cried out to my heart's content in my room cause i was super duperly angry. and am i still suppose to say that is it just my mood swing that's causing the emotion? frankly, i think it isn't. whatever it is, i'll try my best to prove him wrong.
another thing, when i separate myself from the others, i'm not being arrogant or whatever you think of me. i just wanna improve on myself, my studies especially. that's all. and as for the task given to us. pls drag on no more. i wanna hand in asap. can someone tell me, am i just thinking too much?

imissbelovedwataaasomuch.ineedyoubaby.whereareyou?<3

helina

pai to the tao.

2009-07-09T00:15:00.006+08:00

pretty pissed. no no. should say damn fckn pissed my ass off. i guess it's a lesson to be learnt. 'Be wise, choose the right people'. okay helina? lots of things really got me fuming mad. false hope one after another. oh nevermind, i'm used to it. my saviour of the day, TEDD! he made one-quarter of my day. he sort of cheered me up. he really wanted to see me cry and even asked me to cry infront of him, but instead, he made me smile. haha. but too bad, after we went our own ways, i was back to my spoiled mood. thank you tedd. appreciate it much though. thank you for listening to my 'music'. enjoyed our crapping and wacking together(haha!). and ya, to my beloved wataaa, get well soon. please. ily just like the way you love me, dear. okay, takecare readers!

helina

mood tak baek.

2009-07-06T18:41:00.005+08:00

Aku sungguh pissed off with today. 1st thing early in the morning, I can't find my shoes to go to school. Cheebye. Don't know who on earth steal my freaking Vans shoes. I was already damn late for school and I have to search for it. Annoying right! Nahia! At last, I gave up. Wore my sister's shoe since that's the only choice that matched with my ugly uniform.
The next thing is that, as soon as we stepped into the class, that ******* old lady scolded us for coming in 1hr30mins late. Pffft. Syabas. I swear I can't wake up early in the morning just now sia. Damn shiok uh tidur! That explains why we (me & some classmates) ended up kena scolding. Itu, nevermind ehk. Kk.
The next next thing pulak, today class was sooooo lame. Its just so bored. The whole class was like so gloomy. Sedap for tidur uh. Senyap aje.. And we're learning new things besides Auto-Cad. 3-D max or whatever you'l call that. Designing things using 3-D software. Kinda cool. But I still find the lesson lame to the deepest core. Yea, maybe its still the 1st day of school. Looking forward for more exciting lessons. AND I swear I'm not happy with the ******* old lady. Ade ke patot she says that I'm OLD enough to decide if I should continue following my other friends or not. Because if I follow the others, my GPA point will surely go down. Kepala hotak kau berjambol!! Condemn habes sia. Cb. They are my friends. Atleast say something that will help them improve themselves. Ini tidak. Pandang rendah. Sial. Angry sia.
The next next next thing pulak, I'm so freaking pissed off with the bus driver. The weather is already very cold and the air-con is like full blast. Tak ke macam sial tu name nyer. Kulit babi pe tak tahu sejuk.
Haiyo! I'm so not in the mood today sia. Penat, angry and sleepy pulak tu. I wonder how am I going to talk otp with love later. Hopefully, he doesnt add anymore to my anger. If not, I'm definitely gonna burst out. (:

heli's random updates.

2009-07-05T02:21:00.009+08:00

howdy readers! yea, it's obvious, i was on hiatus. i've been wanting to post smth here. but i'm always being pulled back due to some bitchy cocky reasons. i'm thinking,maybe i might be a bit laid back about blogging. well, depends ah. i'll try to keep it short here.

firstly, i'm kinda going bonkers in this house cause now there's two family under one roof. i don't really mind cause their family are small, BUT fucking hell, the chores!! what do you think i am? your 24hrs sochai is it? mind you, i have my own life to run too okay. urghhh! i ain't complaining, i think. but just venting my frust. whatever it is, i just hope they'll do smth with the chaotic mess in MY ROOM, BRO'S ROOM, STORE ROOM && THE REFRIDGERATOR! oooemmgee. only god knows what's going thru in my mind. i guess i simply inherited mom's attitude whereby the eyes will sore if any mess is seen around. random.

secondly, as everyone knows. shool's resuming soon. i am soooo not in the mood to switch to study mode, seriously. whatsmore, the project assigned to us. i say us. hello, it's us! okay. whatever. try your best to get it. if the project is alr like that, what more do you expect from the holiday homework given? woohoohoo. make paper aeroplanes ah, ape lagi. bitch.

____________________________________________

to my dearest wataaa love,

Imagine me without you, I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid.Without you there to see me through.
Imagine me without you, Boy, you know it's just impossible.
Because of you, it's all brand new. My life is now worthwhile.
When you caught me I was falling, your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling, and you rush to set me free.

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you.
ME LOVE SHAFIQ BIN SAHAIMI♥

helina

2009-07-03T15:26:00.004+08:00

I'm currently at Habourfront now. Starbucks with Sarah. I'm quite pissed off with some things. I shouldn't elaborate about that. People say, friends come and go. True friends stay with you throughout. I STRONGLY AGREE. Hmmm...

My 6th monthsary was awesome although I met Cha pretty late at 9pm AND we watched a movie at cwp. HAHA. Kinda pathetic huh. But oh well, I'm happy though. He's the one that completes my day on Wednesday. Haha. Stoopid vulgarities debating with him just makes me happy too. Too bad, no pics taken. He's just not the type who gets crazy upon seeing the camera. Bodoh. Haha. He left with 1 more month and the stoopid attachment will end. I can't wait! Pfft. Sorry Cha, I find your attachment a total whore to me. Hehh.. But study hard dear, I know you can do it! Hehe! Pity him. So many things to handle including me. Haha. Coz I'm always giving him problems, buat perangai and all. But he still can tahan till now. That is why I love him so much. Ok, da. I'll end this post here. Goodbye readers!

its you.

2009-07-01T10:47:00.008+08:00

Sorry for the troubles that I'd made.

Sorry for all the pains that u have to go through.

I'm just happy to be with you.

I feel a great loss when we're unable to talk.

I can never get enough.

You've become a part of me.

I do not know what love is.

But if it means to laugh in you joy, to cry in your pain and feel your presence all around then I am in love.

The past months we have spent together have been incredibly wonderful.

I hope that there are more great times to come.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRkfVZFzV7o

Cha, if you're reading this, watched this vid. I've been wanting to show you. Pfft. K da.

happy 6 months anni dear. ily.

-Fina.

picnic.

2009-06-30T17:59:00.005+08:00

Hello helllo hello! I'm gonna update a lil bit about yesterday outing with Ema. We planned to go Marina Barage to fly kite actually but theres a lil problem so last minute we decided to go Botanic Garden for picnic instead. Despite the wet weather, we did enjoyed ourself with those card games we played under the 'burok' shelter. Haha! Not much of camwhoring there coz its drizziling all the way till evening. So ya. Da puas enjoy, we proceed to Plaza Sing. Walked around, got bored, took bus to Flyers and had our stomach filled at Popeyes. And that's about it. Pictures below. (:

&&& I kinda miss my classmate!! ): Few more days to school. I'm excited plus errr.. malas? Hah.

-Fina

hujan day.

2009-06-25T19:24:00.006+08:00

Both of us went out on Wednesday. Thought of going band but theres no practice on that day. So we decided to go Punggol to take some pictures. But the rain doesn't seems to stop. We waited for about 30 mins at Punggol station sampaiiiiii...... hujan tak berhenti henti. Hah. So we decided to leave the place and find somewhere else thats not rainning. And Shaf came out with a place to go. So, we board the bus and headed to that place. Took pictures, da puas, balik. Haha.

Muke mintak kene ape Shaf? Penampar? hahahahaha.

Picture of the day. HAHAHA!

'tab bats yadaa.. day. (:

2009-06-23T12:31:00.013+08:00

Some updates about yesterday yesterday and yesterday. Heli and I went out early morning to Admiralty for some Trombone and Drums practices on Sunday. I shall not elaborate more about that because itu tidak penting at all. Hah. Erm.. and then both us us make our way home after the practice. Stayed at home for the whole freaking afternoon and was out again at night with Shaf and Heli to our usual 'lepak' place. Hahahaha. Did Joreen's necklace which she ordered. Thanks to Shaf and Heli for helping me out. Hee.. Time check, 10.45pm, so all of us decided to go home. And ya...

So yesterday the three of us were out the whole day. From 10.30am-11.00pm. Went band practice at Msl Sec, had lunch at Banquet and headed to Marina Barage. Had some photo taking session and had our dinner at Raffles. Sat around for awhile and then home sweet home!!

Pictures below. (:

Semangat aku buat. (:

Muke nye tak perlu ehk Shaf. Haha.Giving birth kaki position. Pfft. K merepek.

Haha! Heli muke setan kuda kepang sia. HAHA!

Funney huh...One...Two...

Three... Terus fringe "lawa". Haha.

&& uh.. HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO AREF!!! (right) May God bless you friend. (:

&&& baby, get well soon. I'm worried.

-Fina.

you're special

2009-06-21T16:49:00.005+08:00

Watching those babes going to Sentosa yesterday just turned me down. Love knows the best how much I wanted to go to the party last night. But some things change my total mood of going there. Useless. Pfft. Planned to go Sentosa yesterday afternoon with love but last minute we changed the plan. Went town, spent time together instead. Watched movie, ' Ghost of my Girlfriends' at Shaw and sat around at City Hall after the movie end.

Both of us had some slow talk together. Haha. I felt relieved after love had said all the things that he has been keeping from me all this while. Tears roll down my cheeks hearing some words he said to me. I love you dear. I hope you could just the bear with the situation now. I'm quite sure this won't last long. Trust me. I'm trying my best to show you everything that I'd said is true. Dear, I believe in karma, remember? So, try to put your worries aside. I know what I'm doing. Be strong dear. I myself is trying very hard to tahan with our situation now. Each of us have our part to do. Just do whatever is needed and everything is gonna be fine. Err, I hope its really gonna be fine uh. Pfft. See la, I'm talking like 'perempuan mana punya paham'. But honestly, I paham what the hell I'm talking about ok. Oi Cha, open your eyes big big and read this. Aku love kau bodoh! Seriously. K da.

&&& to my Dad, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

-Fina.

2009-06-18T00:52:00.002+08:00

confuse.

i promise i'll stay strong. with or without you.

ily dear.

-fina

arse!

2009-06-17T13:39:00.006+08:00

Blogshop has been an arse. HAHAHA! No, jk. I've been blogshopping these few days. Urgh! I need to control the temptation. I need to save up already. Mum has been nagging coz she's been seeing new clothes in my closet. Hahaha! Opps, sorry. I seriously can't resist buying uh. 50% off beach dresses oi. Siapa can tahan. Hahhaha. I've yet to wear those new ones. 3 infact. I keep on buying but I don't know when to wear it. Haha. Bodoh kan aku, aku tahu. Tu pasal O level aku fail. HAHAHA! And now, I need to get rid of the old clothes. Should I donate it, sell or just dump it in the bin? Hehehe. Ar, itu kan settle later.

Oh and I miss camwhoring with my lings! I was browsing tru my pictures folders and I found these pics. Oh God! That was the 1st self photoshoot we had. Hahaha! Funny. We woke up so early just to get ready for all those. Haiyo! Ingat balek, macam kelaka. Hahaha.

My all time fav pics. These two. HAHAHA!

Jom self photoshoot lagik! haha!

-fina

a major turn off night. (pictures)

2009-06-15T22:23:00.002+08:00

The pictures are out. :))
Muke mintak kene penampar. Hehh. (:

Feeling feeling minom. BUT I DON'T DRINK OK! I just like the red one uh. I mean the colour. Nice rite. ^^Shaf's friends. :)

I definitely enjoyed myself on those weekends. Haha. And now, here comes weekdays. A total whore. A total hell. K bedek uh a total hell. Ok what I mean, love has start his attachment today and uh I .. i.. i don't know what am i supposed to do now. HAH!!! I woke up damn early today because I had to wake love up freaking 8 in the morning. And uhhh.. I've nothing to do now. Pffft. Err.. I just hope love take good care of himself there. HAHA! Wth siak Fina?! Actually I don't know what to blog about. So ya. I better stop here la ehk. Kk, gdbye readers! (:

2009-06-13T19:49:00.005+08:00

i'll update about the unforgetable night soon ok? soon.

now, i'm totally shagged to the deepest core.

i want my sleep.

k da, bye.

hello world!

2009-06-12T11:27:00.004+08:00

gdluck to me and Shaf later. HAHA!

& i'm going somewhere later at night.

&& i love my boyfriend.

2009-06-10T10:45:00.006+08:00

I'm not going out to anywhere today. Simply because I'm out of cash and my body are somehow aching maybe due to the kendarat thingy few days ago. Tiring mcm sial till today. Still tired. Hah. Macam bedek ehk but true uh oi.

So yesterday I went to school for drawing lesson. Its an extra class but when I reached tamp, its already super duper late. Haha! The class starts at 8.30am and I woke up at 8.30am. Heee.. So reached tamp at around 10.30 and it was already break time. Met Sarah Fiza and Dayah outside school and went to have our breakfast plus early lunch at the nearby coffee shop. After the whole thingy, went e-Hub for awhile, got myself a hipster pants and off to New York Pizza at Khatib to have my late lunch and early dinner with Shaf. Waited for Heli there and then we went back Woodlands together.

We three met again at night near Heli's neighbourhood. Sat around, chit-chat then Aishah joined us for a little while followed by her friend, ex msl student also. Looked at the time, its almost time for us to go. So everyone make their way home.

And I miss love so much. He's been sick few days ago. Food poisoning I guess. Keeps vomiting and going to the toilet. Nie la orang degil, suro pergi clinic, tak nak. Haiya. Hope you get well soon dear and aku miss kau gile babi bodoh!!

&&&& I watched this online just now. The title is quite merepek but the movie was damn fucking hell goood. Haha! Ala ala sweet sad and romantic story gitu. Heehhh.

2009-06-08T10:14:00.006+08:00

Currently, I'm at home. Was awaken by love msessage freaking 6.38am in the morning. Wth!Thanks to him, I can't get back to sleep. So I got up and cook fried rice because I'm hungry. HAHA! Dint eat dinner uh last night. So ya. Haha. And so here I am, sitting infront of the screen, rotting. Thought of meeting love later but see how. I mean see what time will he wake up coz he was out the whole of last night. Pffft. Next week, my turn. Yeah! Haha. Well, maybe not. Hah. I don't know.

-fina

beach.

2009-06-06T08:55:00.006+08:00

Me and some of my classmates went Sentosa yesterday since everyone has finished with their presentations and all. :) I definitely had my mind relaxed after a hectic week in school. Hehh.. So everyone met around 11.30am at Harbourfront, did some tiny-mini-little shopping at Giant and off to the BEACHHHHHH......!!!!! Was pretty excited otw there with the sunny weather. Thought everyone could go into the water but ended up only Fiza and me. Haha. I enjoyed myself although had some part of my skin burnt again after soo long. Pedih siol. Some of them had some camwhoring session and some simply lazing around di tepi pantai itu. Haha.

After quite some time spent at the beach we decided to proceed to Vivo for errr.. I don't know what. Haha! We sat at Starbucks for a little while and then everyone went separate ways to home sweet home. Heee. Me being so lazy to go home early, actually not so early uh, I messaged Heli and Shaf and asked them to meet me at Woodlands. Haha. Bought some food to eat and sat around. Had some cathing up and finally, home sweet home for me! So ya, that's for my day yesterday. :)

Urgh! Had to go Payar Lebar later for the kendarat thingy. Far siol. And if theres no time constrain, I've to go to love's house for kenduri. So ya. I'll see how later. (: Love told me last night that we'll have lesser time to spent together when he start his attachment. Pffft. So.. is that gonna be a good thing or a bad thing?? I don't know. Let's just see how. AND ITS GONNA LAST FOR 10 FREAKING WEEKSSS!!! OMG! Ok, is that long?? Hah!! Ya, to me its quite long uh. 2 months plus?? Fukiweekkkk. Nahh, its ok. Hopefully time flies very fast. Haha. No matter what, I still love you dear.

-fina

my week.

2009-06-02T19:39:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. quite some time ehk I last logged in to blog. The reason being, I'M BUSY BUT NOT ANYMORE AFTER TODAY! hhaha! Yesyes, been busy for the past 1 week with school and ehem! Hehh.. Finally, exams over baby!! && presentations too! :) What a relief uhh but some things aren't making me easy just now. Pfft. The section-head caught my sayang for copying my floor plan. Addoiii... Headache sia. And my presentation sucks to the deepest core I tell you! I freaking hate presentation nie seme uh. Bodoh! I don't know whats gonna happen next uh. Fail ke? ke.... kene repeat ke? Uhh.. kkk. I don't wanna think about this anymore. Its like the suckiest day uh today in my ITE life. I swear siak. Haha. K, I don't know what else to blog plus I'm tireddddddd... Haha. But I'd like to say something! (what isit??) I MISS MY DARLINGS SO MUCH! Chibeyyyy... K enough said. Taking care people!!

2009-05-26T21:16:00.004+08:00

I just feel like uploading this photo here. Pfft. So random. Mind those babat. Hehh.. Macam tayar bus, aku tahu.

Anyway, I felt better after meeting love for a short while just now. Waited for him for an hour or so just to go home with him. Haha! I miss him so much although we often go school together. I seriously need to communicate with him more uh. If not, macam takde maknenyer gitu kan. Haha. And some things get a bit out of control between me and him just now. Blurgh! I hate it when I did something wrong that I don't understand what is it that is wrong about it. Paham?? Haha. I also don't understand what I type sia. Nah, forget about it. Atleast its better now after talking about it otp a while ago. Haiya! Screw me lar. I do things without thinking of the consequences. Bagos ehk Fina, buat laa selalu. :) Aku sayang kau lar bodoh!

So........ had my Building Drawing exam just now. Screw kepada subject itu! I was stuck on the 1st step. Chibeyy. Keep on creating the grids on the screen. Waste time sahaja! But luckily I did finish the longkang-longkang pipes and all. Hopefully I draw the correct thing uh if not, selamat tinggal kepada Poly! I can't have my full certificate after 2 freaking years in ite if I fail this subject and I can only retake the paper after 2 years and 6 months from now. Sape nak gi layan. Hahaha.

Ohhh, and yesterday was the Design and Drawing theory test rite, and I should say a BIG thank you uh to Didi. Last min, an hour before the paper, she did study this big paper about design and she helped me to memorise the thing also. AND QUITE A FEW question is about the design thingy. Naseb.. Haha. If not I'll be just staring at the paper sia. Hee. AND 2mrw is another theory paper. Maakk aii. Pening or whatt! Alot of things going on this week. I just realise that. Haha. Exam sini, exam sana. Masalah sini, masalah sana. Hah. Sorry ehk Sarah, I hold on to your paper. Promise, I'll bring it 2mrw. SORRY!! See la, because of me, people cannot study for paper 2mrw. Legong nyer aku! Sepakk kepale baru tahu! K, I'm off to revise abit for 2mrw. Selamat Malam!!

-Fina

Huyana, Chronoplastic Watch.

2009-05-26T20:52:00.009+08:00

Very nice can? Haha. Is anyone generous enough to buy me this Hot Pink Chronoplastic Swatch watch. Pretty please. $159 only. Hahaha. I can go gugu-gaga-mwah-mwah-nak-nyot-nyot-saliva-dripping over this watch siolsss! aghhhhh!

helina

2009-05-24T18:44:00.006+08:00

how long can i hold on to 'it'?

im not too sure if this is real.

i dont wanna get hurt anymore.

i had enough.

enough of those pains, tears.

i wonder if you're the one.

am i doing the right thing?

am i on the right path?

what am i supposed to do now?

i admit i'm kinda lost.

i've tried to keep this weakness but i can't.

i've tried not to compare but i can't.

i've tried not to think negatively but i can't.

sometimes or the other in our life we experience this heartbreak.

i simply hate that.

who likes it either huh.

i'm scared to put myself into 'it'

i wanna cry but i have to be brave.

i don't think i'm strong enough to pull myself through all this.

i wonder when can i sense that feeling once again.

a feeling that no words can describe.

theres so much that i wanna say to you

but everytime i looked at you, my lips are sealed.

if only time give me the chance to show you everything thats has not been expressed.

i'm sorry if sometimes a glimmer of doubts comes to be.

maybe its just me.

dear, stay close with me and i'll make you feel the love that i have for you.

saturday ku.

2009-05-24T11:36:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, I was out with these two with Heli (ehem!!) haha. I was staring at my sketchbook yesterday afternoon, wanting to finish up the colouring sketch uh konon nye. Stare stare stare, then suddenly I receive a msg from Azmi. 'nak g town?' haha. Straight away I close my sketchbook and reply 'k anything ...' Like at last somebody ajak keluar on Saturday. haha! Happy happy banget. We met at 5.30 and headed to town. Accompanied them to shop from head to toe siol. Espeacially, Azmi. Crazy fellow. He spent about $150 ehk ke $180? I donnoe la but he spent about $100 bucks total yesterday. We were at town for only 3 hrs and he alrdy spent that much. Gile nyer org. haha. He even bought me a blouse. Alahaiii... Baek sungguh. Maklom la da dpt gaji. HAHA! Anyway, thanks ehk. Dont forget to ask me out again next month. HAHA!! Nola, joking! haha. To Azmi, about the wallet thingy, kau wait long long ehk. You can just dream of it, I won't give that precious wallet to you. HAHAHAHA!

Erm.. K.. enough about yesterday. I'm having Design & Drawing theory test 2mrw! Nahia!! I don't know what page to study sia. I mean, I don't know what to study for the paper. Haha. I dint really pay attention in class uh lately. Coz whenever its theory time, its my sleeping time. Haha. Sial. I can't concentrate coz I'm too sleepy. I din't get enough sleep for this week uh. So, ya. Hehh. My assignments are pilling up highhhh beybeh. Haha. I don't know how I'm going to handle those next week. Auto-Cad need to present. WTF! Mini-project need to do colour sketch. Itu lagik WTF!! All must be done by next week. If not, I'm DEAD. :)

And yarr! I watched this with love last Friday. It was awesome dokks. HAHAHA!! I really enjoy watching this. A must watch movie k people! (: I just feel like watching this again uh. Baby, I wanna watch this one again!! JOM! Haha.

-Fina

update / monthsary.

2009-05-22T01:27:00.011+08:00

Been busy preparing for the two Advance Accounting and Costing CA. So, i can't be bothered to entertain such nuisance from some nonsensical people as i have much more worthy things to do. Anyhoo, i don't know, but i suddenly feel like creating my own blogspot. Soon? I think. I really don't know. I'm fickle-minded. Should i or should i not? I've created livejournal tapi macam tak bergerak gitu. Blogger like too common already ah. Livejournal is kinda troublesome. Because why? I think editing the layout codes for livejournal is way too confusing and complicated than blogger. See first eh how.

Thank you for all the patience you have towards me. Maybe the countless arguments were the ones that brought us even closer rather than the good times we had. We perlahan-lahan kayuh okay dear? Haha. I apologise for my sucky attitude when i'm not in the right mood. I should say i'm really lucky enough to have such a fun, can-entertain-my-mrepek and loving boyf despite those girls, or should i say bitches who are desperately after you till now. I thank you for changing yourself not because i asked you to, but with your own will. Thank you for the perseverance of 6 months you had. I really put you to the test didn't i? Heh. No words could describe the love you've been showering me with all this while. All we need now is a strong trust because i'm still having alot of wild thoughts running through in my head.Thank you so much my dear boyf. Happy one month to us. I love you. :)

To awk, it's been nearly close to three years as of today's date. I hope we can keep the friendship going eventhough we're distant. The wind, i remember. Haha. Take care and live high awk! :)

helina

dear sinthu.

2009-05-18T20:21:00.004+08:00

Woooaaaah. Terase rupenye? Minah rep dah bebual ah. Not bad, not bad. 8 months big deal eh? Oooh, ah yelah2. Thanks for the wish anyway, insyallah we will. Hope you'll last long too by being a good girlfriend. Just get this straight in that brain of yours, your words won't bring me down. Alalala.. Try harder okay? Kao peh kao bu eh? Like you said, we'll settle it in a civilised manner. Tak nak, kau punya pasal. :)

monday blues.

2009-05-18T19:41:00.003+08:00

Today was a horrible day for the 7 of us (2 not in the picture; hidayah and diyana). Because all of us were being chased out by our teacher when we were entering the class after break. HAHAHA! Sial. I'm seriously not happy with the way she reacted. She's supposed to ask why we were late and not just chased all of us out with that, 'face'! Nahia! We have our reasons for coming in late ok. Haha! So after kena halau, we went down and rest at the student hub there until lunch time. Fuuhh. We had our longest break time ever uh. Pfft! Then after break time, supposed to go for theory lesson TETAPI laen bende pulak yg jadi. Me, Sarah, An and Grason was called up to see the Section Head. Aku sumpah, itu lagik sial! I was not ready to meet him sia. And I just hand in my appeal form for the examination thingy. God! I swear I was damn nervous all the way in the waiting room. I was the second last person to get "interviewed" by him. Luckily my "reasons" flow out well. Haha. I don't know that he has high expectations from me. He says that I took O level Art before so I have to be better than the rest. And I was like, ok... what is there got to do with my attendance? The main problem here is my attendance and not my grades. HAHH! Tak paham uhh. Nahh.. what I know now is just to come school everyday and do my best. Hehh.. Macam paham. Haha. K da. :D

FINA

feel it.

2009-05-17T19:07:00.006+08:00

I BLOODY HATE THAT FUCKING SINTHU BITCH TO THE CORE. ONCE A BITCH, ALWAYS A BITCH. THAT'S WHY YOU KEEP ON CHANGING BOYFRIENDS BITCH! RAMBOT KAU DAH CELUP, BUAT HAL RAMBOT CELUP JE AH SHITFACE! DEPAN AKU NAK BUAT BAIK. SIAK AH. NENEK KAU BUTCH BODOH!

Obviously i'm angry. Very angry. Now i get what aty means. And fina, thanks for the listening ear. Don't wish to eloborate much about that bitch over here. It's useless. I don't know why am i just so used to keeping my anger and keeping myself mum. I am angry, i should be venting it all out rather than keeping it. Mak kau lesbian bodoh. Okay, no link. Jangan kasi aku geram sampai aku pass handphone number kau kat semua orang. Sial.

...................................................................

Okay, enough about what's above. I actually had a topic in mind about what to write on today. I want to express my thoughts about every old people i happen to see everyday, everywhere around me. Not bothering about what their race is, when i see them i just feel so pitiful for them. When i see those who were already with their leg veins all showing up, there they are still working their guts out. It makes me ponder what the hell are their children doing. If they have no children then i have no say. Looking on the bright side, eventhough they're old, but they're seriously cute. Hehe. So, to sum up the story, i shall take great care of my dearest parents who raised me up the past 19 years with all their might and sweat. And showered me with their never-ending, unconditional love. By the way, both of them are unwell. Well, that's kinda irony. Mom's gotta go through her insulin injection at 2100 hours everyday. :(

helina

bored to death (part two)

2009-05-17T15:20:00.007+08:00

I'm gonna TRY to post a proper one today. Heh. Fyi, i'm dying of boredom right now, like AGAIN. Yes, AGAIN. For the two freaking weekends, I dint go out at all. Ok, bedek. I did but only to the shop nearby here. Sial la, pathetic right. And as for today, I wanted to go Vivo. Idk why on earth I wanna go there uh but I just feel like going there. But keadaan tak mengizinkan gitu, so here I am rotting at home AGAIN. URGH!!!! Serious shit dol, I wanna go out laa sialll. Haha! k maybe this week is just not my week. Hah. I'm not gonna bloody care whats gonna happen next week, what I know is that, I'm going out next week to enjoy myself. Enjoy maha enjoy. Haha. Nola, joking. Enjoy with some limits uh ofcourse.

I really had enough of this week uh seriously. I'm quite pressurise with school BECAUSE first of all, I nearly can't take my exams. Secondly, I hand in my project quite late. And I don't know if my teacher would except it or not. If he's not gonna accept it, I'm gonna......... eat tons of Cadbury chocolates everyday and gain weight again. Pfft. But hey, atleast I make an effort to finish it whattttt. Okok I know its not a good attitude. K Fina, diam. Ae, I break a new record by coming to school every single day for the past TWO WEEKS. Wuhhoo! I'm happy! only for that. Pfft. Ok next. I've not been spending much time with love this week. He's busy. I have to understand him. He have to understand me too. Baahhhaha. I dont know what he has to understand about me uhh. haha. K hopefully we can spend more time together next week. If cannot, its ok. Da biase. HAHA!! o.O haha. Sial la Fina. Haha. Kkkk, I'll stop here.

These are pictures of my project. Its super simple uh and ugly. If u'll can spot some furnitures are floating. hahaha! Its actually a shop uhh (it doesn't look like one rite, i know.) and I name it 'Vintage Affairs'. HAHA!!! Sorry Sheera, aku curik name kedai kau. haha! :)

bored to death.

2009-05-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

i'm not a happy girl today.

i miss him.

-_-

Catching up.

2009-05-14T13:42:00.002+08:00

Lesson ended. I'm still in school right now, waiting until 3.45 to go for the Mendaki Dialogue Session at Conference Room. Saaap, kakak-kakak conference ah. Hah. Okay, not funny. It's been not-a-very-long time since i updated. Alot of things happened though. There's tons of things going through in my mind. Obviously who doesn't feels tired after a long day in school or even anywhere, right? Gonna fall sick pretty soon cause i'm already having dizzy spells for these past few days. But have to keep myself strong to keep up with the lessons in school. Once absent, you're gonna be totally lost. What's more, CA is coming. How great is that.

Anyway, i'm sad. Not so actually. Cause yesterday there was the blood donation event thingy. I was excited. Pretty excited in the first place. It was the first time i volunteered myself to be one of the donors. Hah. Sadly, after the result of the blood tesing, they said i was not eligible to donate my blood. Pathetically was because,

a) at the first place i knew i had low blood pressure. i thought my doctor bedek.

b) i was having that monthly thing. (need not eloborate much)

c) the required iron needed in a person's blood was 12.5, but mine was 11.8! wth.

So, it's already double confirmed to the core that i'm having low blood pressure! Aku sad la. I was given iron pills though. But i heard from others saying that if i take those iron pills, i'll have the tendancy in eating more. So, there goes the iron pills in the waste bucket. Hohoho. K dah, tu je.

helina

sayangku di sekolah.

2009-05-07T20:47:00.007+08:00

HAHAHA! Ok, this post will be so bloody random. HAH! As you'll can see, my title says it all. HAH! This chinese guy here is my 'sayang' in class. He entertains me all the time when we're in class. He will call me 'kakak', 'sayang' whenever he wanna call me. Seldom call my name sia. Baaahhhaha! Crazy. haha! Ar, ok da. BYE! Ok NO WAIT!! WAIT! WAIT! WAIT!

Happiest 18th Birthday to Ein.

May Allah bless you, dear friend.

2 years has passed.

Many experience and memories. I really cherish the good ones. Thank you.

Although we're freaking damn far apart now, I still regard you as my friend. Hehh.

I've heard about your condition. I hope you'll get well soon and then pursue your passion.

Sorry, I grabbed your picture somewhere. Sorry2. :)

will the good times roll?

2009-05-07T19:57:00.010+08:00

Saaap. Early in the morning i was already feeling estatic. Haha! Really happy. Because, when i was on the way to the mrt station, i bumped into Jaszry. I know it isn't a big deal to others, but it really is to me! I was excited because i haven't seen him like for 123456789 ages. Okay, bedek ah. It's like i haven't seen him for a very long time eventhough we stay nearby. Hah. We did chit-chat-catching-up session for awhile. And he told me he registered his application for Singapore Idol. All the best jaz! I was so excited chatting away with him that i almost forgot that i had to wait for Shaff before tapping in. It was until he called me that i realised i was already at the mrt platform. Haha. So sorry Shaff! So while waiting for Shaff, the next person i saw was Hannan!!! I was grinning from ear to ear when i saw him. He and his sleepy face as usual in the morning. Haha. I miss them gila babi to the core siolssss!!! I miss those times. I really do. Not only me, Fina too. Am i right Fina? I miss the time when me and Fina were made as the target to massage Apan and Hannan. Haha. I miss Hannan, Apan, Ein,Jaszry and dot dot dot. But then, me and Fina know the good times we had would never return. Will it? :)

Remember them as....

Hannan

the one who irritates me the most. but a good friend/listener/comforter.

he'll try all sorts of funny ways to cheer me up whenever i'm down. but now action alr. dah ade mataer mah. saaaaap. haha.

Mark

the one who is naturally funny even if he isn't making any jokes.haha.

Apan

the one who's a born-talented guitarist.
the one who's always trying his best to reach the high pitch when he sings. haha.

Jaz

the one who sings well. being bullied/teased by the others.
(but now dah fierce eh? haha.)

Last but not least, Happy 18th Birthday Ein!

psst. hey you,thanks for willing to keep the thing. thank you.

helina

can't think of a title.

2009-05-06T20:14:00.002+08:00

I'm totally shagged nowadays which i don't know why. Yesterday i think i was infected by the sleeping swine flu(choy!). No la, because yesterday i slept like a pig from what time till don't know what time. I slept so badly that i didn't realise my handphone batt came off. No wonder my handphone was "auto silent mode". Haha. It was just now morning then i switched on my handphone and received 10 msgs. Sorry people. Heh. And so, assignments for each of the modules are getting slightly tougher as time goes by. Or is it maybe that i've not been revising my work. Hah. But i know i'm pushing myself for this second year. If can't make it to poly at least i know i've put in effort. Another thing, i'm prepared missing him for two weeks. We are able to meet only after next next saturday. How depressing can that be. Nevermind, i'm strong. As long as we don't drift apart then it should be alright. We are starting to rarely talk on the phone. But it isn't that necessary, is it? He told me to behave at school and outside when he's not around. And he said he had some spy at school to keep a lookout on me. I said, "very well, engage even more spies then." (your spy is your admirer. dyk that?sheesh.)

And today, in school i feel like i've troubled those who are actually close and care for me. Thanks guys. I'm troublesome, i know. Your care and concern are much appreciated. I'll pay you guys back by coming for morning briefing early okay? Hehe. About my livejournal that i've created. It's still under construction. Very mafan to edit here and there ah. See if you wanna. [unkneelay.livejournal.com]

helina

updatezzz...

2009-05-03T11:52:00.019+08:00

We had a small birthday celebration for these two on Saturday. Aty, her advance birthday and Shaf, his belated birthday. I should say thanks to Ash coz with his plan, we managed to gather all darlings back plus Emma, our bestest secondary school buddy. Hehh.. So we had the celebration at the S'pore Flyers, had our lunch at Popeyes and off to Haji Lane for Shisha session! Haha! I'm sure all of us had fun on that day. :D

Pictures now!!